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With her in my arms, her hand on my chest, and her head in the crook of my neck, it was the best night’s sleep I’d had indays.

* * *

Iwoke before her.We had shifted positions in the night. She was facing away from me and I had my arms wrapped around her. I shifted my body slightly away; I didn’t want her to feel my hard-on against her backside. The scent of her hair comforted me. I breathed in deep before sighing. I had no idea what the future held for us. She had to leave soon and I knew I’d have to follow. I couldn’t live in the U.S. and have her back in the UK. Whether I could follow in a few days’ time was something I was unsure of. The day I set foot back on UK soil was the day I would have conquered my urges. In one way I was glad she was leaving, it gave me a goal to worktowards.

She stirred and turned in my arms. Her eyelids fluttered open and I watched as shesmiled.

“Good morning,” Isaid.

“Morning to you, too. Do we have to getup?”

“We do. I have torun.”

“Haveto?”

“Yep. I need to get the blood pumping around my cock right now to pump someplaceelse.”

Her eyes widened before shelaughed.

“Wecould…”

“No, Summer. The next time I have you naked underneath me will be because I want to make love to you, not fuck you. And I need to work on that urge, like rightnow.”

I rolled from the bed and strode to the bathroom. Pissing was hard with a cock that wanted nothing more than to be embedded deep inside her. I changed my shorts, pulled on my trainers and smiled at her as I headed for the beach. I ran, dodging early walkers and dogs. I ran until the sweat rolled from my body and adrenalin pumped around my system. I ran until the blood that had kept my cock rock hard, was diverted to my needyheart.

When I arrived back at the house, Summer was in the kitchen. Music was playing and she was making herself tea. I jogged up the steps to the balcony and she smiled at me through thedoor.

“Coffee?” sheasked.

“Sure. I need a shower firstthough.”

I headed to my bedroom and stripped off my shorts. I stood under the jets of water, and despite my run, it took no more than a thought to have my cock hard again. I stroked, I pleasured myself until I came. It wasn’t entirely satisfactory, but woulddo.

Summer had a coffee ready for my return and I took asip.

“Want to come to the bar tonight?” Iasked.

“Sure, is it open everynight?”

“No, just Thursday, Friday, and Saturdays for now. I don’t think Dex could cope withmore.”

“Will Honey be there?” She hesitated over herwords.

“I imagine so. If she thinks I’ll be there, then she’ll turn up. I need to talk to her, Summer. I’m not sure what Dex has told you so far, but I need to tell her that there’ll be nomore.”

She didn’t speak for a little while. She did however pick up her tea and my hand and led me outside to sit. She snuggled with me on thedaybed.

“It’s okay. I agree that you need to talk to her. I don’t think just walking away from her is helpful, to either of you. I know what you do, with her, and I can’t think that much about it. I understand; I don’t like it, obviously. I’d never put choices in front of you, but I can’t share you with her,” Summersaid.

She hadn’t looked at me all the time she had spoken and I appreciated herhonesty.

“You know it was never a relationship, don’tyou?”

“I do, I understand, sort of. I feel sorry for her, Jack. I wish she would gethelp.”

“Dexter tried for a long time with her but she’s too destructive. She needs me and for a while I needed her. I don’t want to feel that needanymore.”

“That scares me a little. You’ve thrown away that blade and you’re cutting yourself off from her. How do you release your anger, your frustrationnow?”