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“Maybe you should have thought about that before you broke my heart, Callen.” Some days, I wonder how we’re going to manage co-parenting when I can barely manage being in the same room with him most of the time. Then other days, I wantnothing more than to hear him say he’s sorry one more time so I can tell him I love him and forgive him and to please never let go.
But how can I do that when I can’t trust him with my heart?
My life? Yes. He’s proven that.
But my heart...? How many times am I supposed to let one man break it?
Today has been an incredible day, but it’s not that day. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
“I’m never going to stop apologizing for that. I know I hurt you, and I’m so fucking sorry.” All teasing is gone from his voice. Pain is there in its place, clinging to every word. I want to say,good, join the damn club. But I can’t. Because as mad as I am at him, I still hate seeing him hurting. “Please, Cait... put yourself in my shoes. If someone told you if you stayed with me, you’d be putting me at risk, can you honestly tell me you wouldn’t have done the same damn thing?”
A million smart-ass answers are sitting on the tip of my tongue, but I can’t force any of them out. Because I can’t say I’d do anything all that different. But Callen doesn’t deserve to know that because the one different thing I’d do is talk to him first.
“You should have talked to me. You could have saved us both so much pain.” I throw my napkin on the table and signal the waitress for the bill. “We could have been happy, Callen. We lost our chance. We lost the life we deserved.” I grab my purse and get up.
“Where are you going?” He asks, frustrated.
“To the bathroom. Pay the bill. I want to go home... Oh wait. I almost forgot. I don’t have one of them anymore.”
CALLEN
Callen
Are any of you available?
Killian
I’m around.
Leo
Me too.
Nixon
Like right now? Give me an hour. We’ve got a day off and Kenzie should be home for lunch any minute.
Leo
So what? You’re going to cook her lunch?
Nixon
No, asshat. I’m going to eat her for lunch.
Callen
Does anyone have a ladder?
“Where did you say Caitlin is?” Killian asks from the bottom of the ladder as he hands me the next string of white icicle lights Cait picked out to be strung along the edge of the roof.
“Her friend Addie lives around the corner in the old Winbury bed and breakfast. Jude drove her there. I’m surprised she even told me where she was going,” I admit, frustrated. Who’d have thought hanging lights would be hard.
“I thought the old lady that owned that place died,” Nixon asks.
“All I know is Cait’s friend lives there now. She’s barely talking to me. So it’s not like I’m getting a full story.” Fuck. I almost staple my finger to the shingles.
