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He was the demon standing on the left side of the devil.
She was the dark storm who brought chaos.
Together, they’d been unstoppable. Didn’t matter that her daily profession was focused on saving lives. Or that she spent most days bringing peace and comfort to those who needed it. She could handle both sides of her wicked nature.
Nico never understood how she could do it. Walk into a warehouse with him and Max, help them take care of a rival gang, guns blazing, knife at the ready, and not bat an eye. Then two hours later, be at the local hospital, helping a doctor bring a patient back from the brink of death.
It was just who she was.
The Angel of Mercy who craved the dark chaos of violence and death. If she couldn’t embrace the darkness, she’d never be able to control the need that coursed through her veins. That he wanted to take that away from her was not okay. He could take that bullshit idea back, because it wasn’t happening.
In her lengthy silence, he’d walked up to her. One large hand cupped her face, bringing her gaze to his. “Listen to me. I know what you want. What you think you need. But things are getting to a point where I need to protect you.”
“You don’t need to protect me,” she challenged.
Nodding his head, he gave her a stern look. “Yes, sweetheart, I do. For almost half my life, you have been by my side. First as my friend, then my lover,” he paused when she dipped her head down. He’d been her first, even though he’d been with girls before. “Then as my wife.” Leaning his head down, he placed a soft kiss on her lips, lingering there for a few extra seconds.
She spoke when they broke apart, “And you’re my husband. I’d never ask you to give up the life you want. What you need.”
Shaking his head, Nico closed his eyes briefly before looking at her again. “When you were shot—”
Vini attempted to pull away, “I don’t want to talk about it.”
“But we are,” he growled. “Every time I bring it up, you pull away. Shut me out. Enough with the hiding, Vini.”
Tears pricked her eyes as she looked away from him. Although she kept telling herself she’d dealt with the hurt and the pain of that incident, clearly it was still raw. “I’m not hiding. I just don’t think we need to talk about it.”
“But don’t you see? That’s the fucking problem. We lost our baby,” his voice broke as he finally said the words. “What if that bullet had gone in another direction? Huh? Did you think about that? I could have been standing over your dead body. Do you know what that did to me?”
Her eyes lifted to his face. Sucking in a gasp, she saw the pain and fear reflected in his eyes. “Nico.” Lifting a hand of her own, she cupped his jaw. He hadn’t shaved in couple of days, so the prickly hairs on his jaw rubbed against her hand. Stomach clenching in need and desire, she wanted to lean into him, rest her head on his chest. They hadn’t been this close in months, and she missed him. Missed her man’s strong body wrapped around hers at night. Missed the feel of his thick cock filling her body, giving her screaming orgasms. God, why did she have to love him so much? Need him so much?
“I refuse to lose you to some stupid shit. I won’t. I can’t. This life…Max and I know what we’re doing. What we’re getting into each day.”
“So do I. This world isn’t what caused the situation two years ago. It had nothing to do with us.”
Shaking his head before she’d finished, the muscle in his jaw ticked. “No. No more discussion about it. If that means you’re angry with me because I won’t let you be out there with us, so be it. I need to protect you. Keep you safe. If something happened to you, I’d burn this fucking city down, and everyone in it.” Placing his forehead against hers, he exhaled. Hands going to her waist, he pulled her body flush against his. “Do you understand me, Vini?”
“You don’t understand what you’re asking of me.” Thinking about how fast things could spiral for her, she didn’t know how to make him understand.
“I do. Baby, I know what drives you. Asking you to take a step back? Yeah, I know what it could mean.”
Vini’s heart pounded inside her chest. She felt on the verge of a panic attack. If she didn’t have an outlet for the anger, she’d get her fix another way. Nico knew this. Why couldn’t he just let her continue? Pulling away, she turned her back to him.
“If you truly knew, you’d never ask this. You know I can handle myself. You talk about what you need. What you want. Not once have you said anything about understanding what I need. What I want,” she paused, taking a deep breath. “No, if you truly knew what was best, you’d never ask this of me. This love you feel for me, that need to protect me that you speak of? How will you protect me from myself when you take away the only thing that’s kept me sane all these years? You may not understand my need for this or the reasons why, but not only did you take away my ability to stand by your side, show a united front, protect your back, whatever,” she waved a hand in the air, “you took away the power I have as your partner, your wife, your shield out there in this crazy world. You did all that because of what you need. Did you even think about how it would make me feel?”
Vini came out of the memory only to realize she was standing outside their bedroom door. Even when he was here before, he’d only stayed in the master bedroom a few days. Surprisingly, he’d allowed her to move him into one of the guest rooms while he was recuperating. Guess he wasn’t giving her that option this time.
They had so much to deal with. Hell, she wasn’t even sure if they could get past everything. These past two years had done shit to her psyche she’d never expected. Her love for Nico was stronger than ever but forgiveness was hard to come by. Even his explanations had fallen on her deaf ears. Yet, she still wanted him. Even through the thick door, she could feel her body responding to the knowledge of him on the other side. Wet, naked, and just stepping out of the shower.
Her pussy clenched with need as her mind conjured up a vision of him walking around their bedroom with that “Big Dick Walk” he had. Smiling to herself, she knew it was well-deserved. She’d never been with another man, but she was pretty damn sure Nico had more than enough, and a little extra.
Shaking her head, she laughed at the hesitation flowing through her. If she walked into the bedroom, would they pick up where they left off? Or would he turn her away? Maybe she could convince him to give her enough to end her draught. Was it even possible to have a sex-only relationship with your husband? Shrugging her shoulders, she figured it was at least worth a shot.
“Come on, Vini. Stop being a pussy,” she laughed at that little joke. “Go in there and tell your husband, you want his dick.”
As she was speaking to herself, the bedroom door opened. Nico stood in front of her wearing black workout pants without a shirt this time. A shit-eating grin covered his face, as he looked her up and down. “I thought you’d never ask.”
