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"I didn't know shit about God, Gaz. But you and Giancarlo have convinced me that He was the reason I didn't die that day."
I finally see where this is going, and I can't believe I was so blind not to have seen it from the start.
"So you tell me. You tell me, Gaz," Sarica says fiercely. "Why should I believe what the whole world thinks when I know the truth? We know there's no limit to what He can do, so why should I act otherwise? I don't give a fuck about what other people say. It's not Giancarlo's time yet. We both know it isn't. Because there are things he still has to do, things I...things I...have to tell him."
Oh, Sari.
She's always made a show of not being in love with my brother. But it's not like any of us, least of all Giancarlo, ever believed her.
"He's alive, Gaz," Sari says fiercely. "He has to be, and—-"
"You need to stop swearing," I cut her off with a teary laugh.
I'm sorry, God. I forgot who You are, and I started doubting You even without knowing it.
"Because you're right."
And thank You.
Because He's used Sarica to open my eyes, and I'll just have to find a way to make it up to Sarica when this memory comes back to haunt her, and she'll start hating herself for being so nice and emo.
"Hell yes, I'm fucking right!"
A choked laugh escapes me. "What is it with all this swearing?"
"To give Giancarlo nightmares, wherever he is."
Her grim tone doesn't fool me at all.
She knows she's being silly, but she doesn't care.
She wants him back as much as we all do, and I just can't help it anymore.
I throw my arms around her and hug Sarica as tightly as I can even though I know she'll hate it. I just need to hug her right this moment. And even though I'm already expecting Sarica to shove me away any second—-
Oh, Sari.
She starts to cry instead.
And her tears say everything, even without a single word.
You get it, too, don't you, Gaz?
And I cry with her because I do get it.
Giancarlo is still alive.
Because God's got our back, and we don't even have to do anything.
Giancarlo is alive!
Because God promised to fight for him, and God always keeps His promises.
Always.
Journal Entry
It's Day 40, and the people around us have started showing their true colors.
