AllFreeNovel
Share Us
Coward, a voice whispered in my head. Nix scared me. I didn’t know a lot about him, but in a weird way I felt like I did. Like maybe I knew him better than people in his real life did.
Real life. The cynical, jaded part of me spoke up. Real life is what mattered, and he hadn’t tried to meet or get to know me on a different level.
“I think I need to get some sleep.” The words tasted bitter on my tongue the moment I said them out loud.
“Sleep?” he repeated gravely.
“Yeah, I’m tired and…”
“You trying to shake me off, kitten?” I frowned.
“I don’t know what you?—“
“Don’t play with me, baby.”
“Nix, it’s just… what is this?” I blurted out and immediately wished a big black hole would suck me up and take me away. “I just mean, is this something you do?”
“I do?”
“You know, the whole try out texting random phone numbers to get to know someone?”
“Vivi, breathe for me.”
“No. I thought this was… but you know what, forget it. Don’t answer the whole what is this question because I’m being ridiculous.” I am such a dork!
“Viv—"
“I gotta go. Maybe we can talk next week or something.”
And without overthinking, I ended the call.
I stared at the screen while my heart raced. I’d done it. I’d put distance between me and the most interesting thing I’d had in my life.
I could go back to my routine.
It might be boring, but I knew what to expect from it. Not boring, stable, I corrected, yet it didn’t help my mood as I dragged myself to the shower.
five
nix
I watched her walk through her apartment after her shower, and I could almost smell the scent of her body wash from my car. I knew it was my mind playing tricks on me. Reminding me of the things I’d smelled while I was in her home, but it didn’t stop my mouth from watering.
My hands clenched tightly while I stared up at the open windows. She moved around her space, so deep in her head, she had forgotten to shut the goddamn curtains. She never forgot to do that shit. My girl was all about routine, and when I watched her stare out the window, I knew she was all out of sorts.
And I only had myself to blame.
I tore my gaze away from her to the area around me. There weren’t many people out. Mostly some coming and going, but it didn’t stop me from worrying about some creep staring up and watching my girl in a moment they weren’t supposed to.
You are the creep, a voice reminded me, but instead of scowling, I found myself smirking. Pride at the fact I was indeed the guy who was watching her. The one who would keep watching her. My little kitten showed me her itty-bitty claws for the first time tonight. Something that usually would have been a turn-off I found had the opposite effect on me.
Hanging up on me and ending the call had fucking turned me on. I shook my head. She’d shocked me, almost pissed me off. I’d been half tempted to climb up the stairs her fourth floor walkup, three at a time, and pound on her door to ask her what the hell she was thinking.
Maybe we can talk next week or something. The words replayed in my mind, and that smirk grew to a grin.
Did she really think I would just stop talking to her? That I’d let her put space between us? Maybe if she had pulled this shit a couple of days ago, before I decided I wasn’t going to walk away. Before I decided she was mine.
But even then, I had a feeling I would have kept my distance for a couple of days before I barged back into her life.
