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Did I truly deserve his love?
His patience?
Here I was—a mosaic of identities, each with its own perspectives and memories, a collective soul housed within a single body.
And he doesn’t care?
Sighing, I decided to get Kaz a blanket.
I quietly made my way to Paolo’s bedroom.
The door creaked open, a soft whisper cutting through the silence. The room was heavy with the scent of candy and cookies.
Baba spoiled the shit out of you today? Didn’t she?
Among my little baby’s sleeping form, his night nanny snoozed on her cot by the bed.
Gently, I picked up a woolen blanket from a dresser by his bed and then watched Paolo.
He slept soundly. His long hair framed his face in a picture of angelic peace.
As I observed him, another layer of doubt unfurled within me.
Did I deserve the love of this innocent soul, too?
My heart ached with the weight of this uncertainty.
Stop thinking that way.
With the blanket in hand, I quietly headed away and couldn’t resist a detour to Emilio’s room.
I peeked inside, careful not to wake him.
All my boys are knocked out.
One of his wet nurses rested on a small bed nearby.
I crept to the crib and studied Emilio. The sight of him, so small and pure, intensified the turmoil within me.
Can I be the mother you really need, when my own mind is a battleground of conflicting people?
My heart ached again.
With the blanket draped over my arm, I left the nursery and returned to where Kazimir slept.
God, I pray I deserve you.
I carefully placed the blanket over Kaz’s huge body. He stirred a little and then shifted to the side.
He was a muscular mountain under that blanket. His chiseled biceps made the cloth ripple with each snore-induced flex.
His hair, usually so precisely styled, was now tousled in a way that added to his rugged charm.
I couldn’t help but feel a familiar flutter in my heart. Kaz had this innate ability to captivate me, his physical allure intertwined with the depth and complexity of the man I had come to know so intimately.
It was a fleeting distraction from the emotional gravity of the moment, but a reminder of the undeniable connection that existed between us.
An involuntary smile tugged at my lips as I looked at him.
