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I wince. I nearly got bit by one when I walked out of the basement gym and almost stepped right on one.
Snake shudders. "I swear, never a fucking gain. That woman needs supervision."
Breaker chuckles, but his earlier words are still swimming around my head.
Kennedy is coming home, which means he’s spoken to her while she’s gone radio silent on me. I know Breaker is with Quinn; I know he loves Quinn, but right now, my mind is not in the right fucking place.
Are they…have they been together?
The thought makes me see red and I’m ready to blow as I bark, "When exactly is Kennedy back?"
He’s been speaking to her; he gets to hear her fucking voice while I’m here drowning, barely getting any air, and yet he never said anything. He knows why I chose Prue and why I did what I did.
Why in the fuck didn’t he tell me she’s been answering his calls?
He clears his throat. "She, uh, doesn't want anyone to know."
I snap, my anger overriding me, "Are you fucking kidding me, Breaker? I told you why I did what I did. Why won't you tell me when she's due back so I can finally become whole again?"
I feel like I can’t fucking breathe.
He sits forward, sighing, and links his fingers over the oak table.
He says, "She just wants a few days to settle in before the club bombards her. Lucas, everyone around this table is on your side, but I must be on hers."
Is he having a fucking laugh right now?
I growl, "Let me guess, you're picking her up from the airport?"
He chokes a little, then mutters. "Actually, I'll be flying out to her, and traveling back in her car."
Some brothers curse, and anger tears at me as I stand angrily. "Does your old lady know about your infatuation with Kennedy? You always wanted her, didn't you? That's why you're not willing to help me? That's why you fucking hit me, a brother…."
I instantly regret my words, but instead of getting pissed, he laughs, causing Sniper to grip my arm as I lunge for him.
His eyes soften as he states loudly, "What I'm about to say does not leave this fucking room. Do I make myself clear?" He looks around the table, the brothers all gazing at him, confused. At the same time, I try to swallow my anger and the pain that is shooting through me.
I can’t do this anymore…I just fucking can’t.
Breaker makes eye contact with me, showing concern, and he admits, "Lola only knows because Ken had enough of her shitty behavior, and my old lady knows because, well, she's my woman, and Tech knows because he's Tech, he knows all."
I look at him in confusion as Bull, Snake's dad, states, "We old brothers know as well."
Breaker nods. "They also know."
Snake says, "We promise not to mention anything outside of this room, including to our women. What don't we know, brother?"
He sighs. "Fuck, she may kill me for this…. Kennedy is my cousin."
What the…. I sit down in shock, my mouth hanging open.
He continues, "My dad…." He looks at my dad. "My birth dad," I smile a little at that, happy that he’s giving my dad the title he deserves after all the years. "…and Kennedy's momma are siblings." Fuck. "When Dad chose the club and Momma, his parents, who were fanatical Christian, disowned him, and so did his sister. Since then, my grandparents have seen the error of their ways…it was just too late. They know Ken and I want nothing to do with them out of respect of my dad, but have given each of us a trust. We haven't touched it, though I did encourage Ken to spend hers to move out of her momma’s. Still, the girl is stubborn and knows as soon as Cora finds out about the money, she'll demand it."
Sniper cuts in, "Why the secrecy?"
I swallow hard, my guilt eating at me for taking my anger and jealousy over this other guy on Breaker, causing him to reveal a secret he clearly didn’t want to.
He sighs, running a hand through his hair. "Her momma hates the club; she'd stuck by her parent's beliefs. When Dad died, she said it was karma…. Brothers, Ken's life growing up was hard on her. It's why she spent most of her time here at the club, staying in my room. Her momma is a bitch and a whore, while her father is an abusive drunk. When she was an infant, my father made a point that she be in our lives, the school helped too, and Ken always knew not to tell her momma. Dad ensured she knew she had a decent family that loved her." He looks at me. "Ken is my cousin, Lucas. You hurt her, so I fucking hurt you; that is how it goes. Her feelings come before yours. Yes, I understand why you did what you did, but you still hurt her. I'm going to put her first. Yes, I will help you as I promised, but she has asked for a few days to settle back in; she's not stupid, she knows you're going to go full force. I've tried to get in her head about you and your love for her, but you made her the other woman, you lied to her. You have a fucking lot of groveling to do, and you need to tell her why you chose the path you did. There is shit you don't understand, Lucas, shit I refuse to tell you because it's not my place, and my loyalty is with Kennedy, my cousin, my sister by heart, plus I have other shit I'm dealing with than your hurt over not knowing when she's coming home. You need to understand—Noah, Quinn, me, we're the reason she’s coming back here; you need to work on making you the reason."
