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“I don’t understand how that means we can’t be together. I meant what I said. I love you, Declan. I need you with me. I can’t survive without you. What do I have to do to convince you?” I was frustrated with myself and him. There had to be a way to fix this. I knew that Eli wouldn’t be here with us if he didn’t think we could.
“Look, you can’t trust me because of my connection to Kayden and the hunters. I understand that. I would never turn any of you in. Not even Vik. Just let me go home and you can get back to whatever you need to do here.” He sounded so determined. I needed to crack the shell he’d put around his emotions.
“You said that I used you. But you were the one that used me. I wasn’t the one who slept with you and then told you to leave me alone. That was what you did. I just went and had a conversation with one of my other guys. I’m worried about you. I don’t want what I did to get in the way of your friendship.” I tried to sound cold, but it wasn’t possible. My heart was breaking because this stubborn man wouldn’t listen to reason. I hated him almost as much as I hated myself. “I’m not going to beg you to stay. I can’t force you to want me. But I want you, even though I’m severely pissed at you right now.”
I turned and walked toward the door. Declan didn’t make a move to stop me or say anything. The knob turned in my hand. “I’ll come to see you in a minute,” Eli whispered, kissing my temple. I nodded and closed the door behind me. I leaned against the door for a moment, but they were speaking too softly for me to understand what was being said. I walked to my room and quietly closed the door behind me. I wasn’t sure that I wanted anyone to see me tonight.
Eli was true to his word and entered my room almost immediately after I did. “He’s not going anywhere. But he is going to need some time to come to terms with his own emotions.”
“How did you convince him to stay?” I was half scared to ask but needed to know. Eli picked me up and carried me to the bed. He climbed into it with me and held me close.
“I told him that he can’t leave yet. Vik won’t let him, even if he tried. The place is locked down. We’d need the code from Vik to get out, and he’s not going to hand that over. That would mean risking you.” Eli winked at me.
“So, you lied?” I laughed. He nodded.
“Shh, don’t tell him that. He’ll come around. Just give him time. A few days, a week. Maybe longer. I can’t be sure. But I know he cares about you. We have to give him the time and space to realize it.” Eli and I settled in and went to sleep. I was surprised that he didn’t try anything. I guess he knew that I needed support instead of sex.
The next few days turned into weeks. Things in the bunker were awkward and painful. I wanted to be close to Declan, but he avoided me as much as he could. If Vik hadn’t decided that we all had to eat together, I doubted that I would have seen him at all. Eli watched the news articles and let me know when the hunters announced that they had a suspect in the store clerk’s death. He couldn’t find out who the suspect was or how close they were to finding them.
When Scott brought the next supply drop, Eli had asked for tabletop games to pass the time. I hadn’t been as interested in sex since Declan ended things with me. I knew that both Vik and Eli were getting irritated about it. Not that I didn’t have sex with them, because I did. I just couldn’t force myself to be in the mood all the time with the pain in my heart. Something was missing. So instead of having sex and spending time alone with my guys, we ended up all playing games together in the living area. Eli and Vik had to make Declan play. He wanted to stay away from all of us, but there weren’t many games that could be played with only three people.
One evening, I managed to corner him in the kitchen after Eli and Vik claimed they were going to bed. Declan tried to walk away, but I got in his way. If he wanted to escape, he would have to move me physically. “I’ve got nothing to say,” he offered, trying to move past me. I stood my ground, wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist.
“That’s fine. I have enough to say for both of us.” I stared into his eyes, my face an inch from his lips. His tongue shot out and desire filled his eyes. No matter how much he denied it, he wanted me. I closed the distance and pressed my lips to his. For a moment, he gave in and kissed me, letting his tongue tangle with mine.
“Delilah, we can’t.” He pushed me back without forcing me off. I held on tightly. I wasn’t going to let him push me away again.
“Why not? Are you seriously going to tell me that you haven’t been sulking around here for weeks with that massive erection, thinking about me?” I knew it wasn’t fair, but I didn’t care. I was still mad at him for rejecting me. He growled in response before capturing my lips with his again and backing me up against the wall.
“Do you really think this is about me not wanting you? Of course, I want you. I want you so badly that I jerk off every night thinking about your perky tits and tight ass. That’s not the point. You can’t trust me because of who I know. I’m just making things easier for you.” His voice was raspy with need. Declan had grabbed my ass with both hands when he pinned me to the wall.
“Why can’t you trust me? You made this decision for me, without giving me a chance to trust you. I never said I couldn’t trust you. You said that. I trust you with my life. You are my safe space. Don’t you understand that?” He growled impatiently while I was talking and started kissing my neck and shoulder.
“I can’t be this close to you and not want you. I need you, mo chroí.” He hadn’t used that nickname for me since the night he ended things.
Chapter 37
Declan
I knew the second Delilah cornered me in the kitchen that I couldn’t resist her. I wanted her so badly that I walked around with a constant hard-on. Jerking off didn’t help. The damned thing just popped back up. I had her pinned to the wall, kissing her neck while she yelled at me. I wondered briefly why neither of the other guys tried to intervene. Maybe they knew exactly what was going on.
Over the past few weeks, they’d all tried to convince me that I was making a mistake. It was pathetic when even Vik got involved. I wouldn’t listen to any of what they said. It wasn’t that I didn’t hear their arguments, I just couldn’t afford to let my guard down. Now in one moment, all of that was undone. My dick was trying to rip through my jeans, and I was certain that all the blood had rushed from my brain.
It didn’t help matters that Delilah had started wearing short skirts and crop tops. It was like she was trying to torture me. Once I had her against the wall, I realized that she wasn’t wearing any panties. Her delicious pussy was pressed against my jeans. That was why my dick wanted out so badly. I groaned and kissed her again to shut her up.
If she wanted me so badly, I wasn’t going to deny her this time. I adjusted her higher to unzip my jeans and ease them off my hips. My cock jumped free, and she slid down onto it. I kept her pressed against the wall as I pounded into her, taking out all my frustration in each thrust. When she started moaning, I caught her lips with mine again. I didn’t need Eli or Vik coming in to interrupt us. I needed to fuck some sense into my girl. She needed to understand that I was just trying to protect her.
Delilah gripped my shoulders as I thrusted into her repeatedly. When I finally released her lips, she tipped her head back and growled. “Yes, Declan, yes. Don’t stop.” I couldn’t if I had wanted to. I was riding the high of her scent to my release. She tightened around me with her orgasm, and I lost control. I shot my load inside her and kissed her again.
“That was amazing,” I whispered against her ear, lowering her to stand. She grinned at me, then punched my arm. “Ow, what was that for?”
Delilah pulled her skirt down to cover herself while I pulled my jeans up and fastened them. “You were being a dick. Don’t ever try to leave me again. You love me. Stop trying to pretend like you don’t.”
I nodded. “You’re right. I got scared and tried to run away. Thanks for not giving up on me.” No matter how hard I tried to hide my feelings, the three of them knew. And there was no running from it.
“I’m not going to let you run away. We need you too much.” Delilah took my hand in hers and pulled me toward the living area. I shouldn’t have been surprised to see Eli and Vik waiting for us, but I was. Why hadn’t they tried to stop me from having sex with her?
“Oh, good. You’re finally done. Now we can talk about the important stuff.” Vik’s sarcasm wasn’t lost on me. It also confirmed that they were listening. Great.
