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“Fucking up with your color scheme.” He chuckles. “It’s okay, my bad. Why the color scheme though? You never told me.”
“I have…” I lick my lips. This is something I’ve never discussed with anyone, except Eric, but Kyrian deserves to know. All of them do. “I have some… OCD issues.”
A small silence spreads. The guys’ faces are blank. I don’t think the words have sunk in yet.
But then Kyrian says, “I told you, guys, didn’t I?”
“You knew?” I stare at him. At all of them. “Why aren’t you running away?”
“We don’t want to run away.” Archer reaches for my hand, takes it, measures his palm against mine. “Our only question is, how can we help?”
Damn him. My heart is racing. Are they serious?
“Yeah, man,” Roman takes my other hand, tugs me toward the bar. “Let’s have a seat and tell us if there is anything we can do. It’s stress-related, right? Can we take any of that stress off your shoulders?”
“Guys…” Kyrian stops us. He comes to stand in front of me. “I think his stress has to do with what he told us. The debt. His parents. The pack he has to choose. Sawyer…” He takes a knee in front of me, and I stare at him, dumbfounded. “Choose us.”
“Excuse me?”
“Now we know what this is about,” he says, “that we know it’s not your choice to be with another pack, I’m making you an offer on behalf of the McGraw Pack: choose us.”
“But…” I turn to look at Roman, and then Archer. Archer is grinning. “Have you talked about this?”
“Of course we have. Kyrian is right,” Archer says, “why wait a second longer? Join our pack, Sawyer. We want you. We’ve never gone looking for another member, but then we met you and Brinlee, and we can’t imagine our pack without you.”
“But I…”
“Say yes,” Kyrian says. “Say yes to trying.”
“Say yes,” Roman repeats, his eyes bright. “Be with us.”
My jaw clenches. “Didn’t you hear me? Don’t you get what it means? I have OCD. I’m… fucked up. Broken.”
“OCD doesn’t make you broken, Sawyer.” Kyrian is still on the floor, gazing up at me. “It makes you a fighter. You keep going against the odds. You face obstacles every day that most of us don’t have to, and you don’t let them slow you down, or stop you. That’s fierce. That’s courageous.”
“But… there’s something wrong with me.”
“No, there isn’t. You are who you are, and if anxiety gives you trouble, well, then, we need to make sure your life isn’t hampered by anxiety anymore.”
He makes it sound so simple. “It won’t stop, you know,” I say quietly.
“What?”
“The OCD. Even if I’m happy. Even if I’m not so anxious. It will never completely go away.”
“And that’s absolutely fucking fine,” Kyrian says, eyes blazing. “You’re perfect as you are.”
My voice cracks just a little when I ask, “So you really want to be with me?”
Roman taps his chest and grins. “Cross my heart and all that. Why not give it a try? Trial period, how about that? If it breaks, you get your money back.”
Yeah, I want to laugh, and I want to cry, but I won’t. Laughing would prove I’m crazy, crying isn’t manly, and an omega has to be careful not to appear weak. “I just… I don’t know what to say.”
“Yes? Say yes. If you want to, that is.”
“Fuck, I want it,” I whisper. “I’ve never wanted anything so much in my whole life, especially if Brinlee is joining, too.”
“We’re working on Brinlee,” Roman says, whatever that means. “So what do you say?”
