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I frown as he walks away. “You drank all the milk?”
“I needed to wash down my meds,” he mutters without turning around.
I don’t know where he’s been all day, don’t know where he slept last night, but by eight o’clock, I’m dead on my feet from not having slept much the night before. When I get into bed, uncertain if sleep will elude me or not, I hear noise. Footsteps getting closer, then receding. Getting closer, then receding again. I step into the hallway and see Derek’s back. He’s walking down the hall.
“What are you doing?” I ask.
He whirls around and looks at me with a curled lip. He storms toward me and the intensity on his face, his body language, they make me back up. I stumble a little, but catch myself and plaster myself against the wall beside the door to the bedroom.
“Stopping myself,” he rasps, thrusting a hand through his hair.
“From what?” I ask.
He gets four or five feet away and stops.
“They’re not working,” he tells me.
“What?” I ask, trying to shrink.
“The pills.”
I blink a couple of times.
“What are they supposed to do that they’re not doing?”
Is he having violent thoughts? He looks so angry.
He’s not answering my question.
“Your hand isn’t twitching,” I observe. It looks steady to me.
He lifts his hand, turning it to first examine the front, then his palm.
He abruptly lunges, caging me in against the wall with both palms.
I gasp and stare at him wide-eyed.
He’s breathing hard. He’s got beads of sweat above his eyebrows, above his upper lip. His pupils are huge. What’s happening here? Is Derek having a psychotic break?
“They’re not stopping my thoughts, they’re not stopping my urges.”
“Derek, you’re scaring me.”
“Know what my urges are, do you?”
I shake my head.
“Do you want to know?” he demands.
He’s so close I feel his body heat. His eyes are so angry, so cold.
“You’re really scaring me.”
“I want to throw you on the nearest surface and fuck your brains out. Fuck you to death. Fuck you until I’m dead. I want to fuck you until there’s nothing left of either of us.”
I somehow manage to swallow.
He’s breathing even harder, practically breathing fire.
