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Jenna: And she ended it as soon as things started with you
Amory: What?
Amory sighs to herself. This is what Blake told her last night, but she really didn’t want to believe it. Part of her did, but it all seemed too easy. Now, however, it seems so difficult. Amory may have fucked up, but she doesn’t want to admit that to herself. She starts to realize that it was easier for her to believe that Blake never changed than it was for her to admit that she cared about her, that she cares about her, that she might be falling in love with her.
Jenna:Yeah, we were never together. I really don’t want a relationship
Jenna: We just used sex to blow off steam. It was never serious
Amory doesn’t know how to feel or what to think about this. She feels partially like she owes Blake an apology, but she’s so stubborn, she kind of doesn’t want to give one. That’s so messed up, and she knows it. She definitely owes Blake an apology, if Blake will even forgive her.
Jenna: And Blake told me that she missed work. Is she okay?
Amory: I don’t know.
Amory: I’m going to make some soup when I get home. Hopefully it’ll help.
Jenna:If it gets worse, you might need to force her to get checked out. She’s too stubborn to do it on her own.
Isn’t that the truth. How on Earth did the two most stubborn people in the world end up in a cabin together? And more than that, how did the two most stubborn people in the world end up having sex and caring for one another? Amory feels like she owes Blake an apology, but she doesn’t know how to give one. She was never any good at giving apologies.
Amory: I will. I’ll check in on her later
Jenna: And Amory
Jenna:Blake told me what she did with your old girlfriend, and I’m not saying that you should forgive her, but I know that she’d never do that to you again
Amory frowns at the text message. She’s beginning to feel like a real dick. She just assumed that Blake was cheating, and even though she had in the past, she assumed without any proof. She also didn’t listen to her when she tried to explain the situation. It’s taken another person getting involved for her to finally see reason. How many more people have to talk to her before she grows up and realizes that Blake really isn’t the same person she knew all of those years ago?
When Amory is done with work, she walks to the cabin alone. If she’s being honest with herself, she misses walking home with Blake. That time when Blake held her hand, before everything blew up, made her stomach tingle and she wanted more. If she can get over herself, she could see her and Blake creating something long term, maybe creating a life together.
Amory truly does want that, but she’s scared. She’s convinced that Blake is going to do something to ruin it. She thought that she did do something to ruin it, thought that she cheated again. Now that she truly knows the truth, she’s still scared, but she’s also upset with herself. She never even really gave Blake a chance. She let old hurts get in the way of a potential happiness.
Amory was so terrified that Blake would do something to ruin their relationship, she realizes, that she was the one to ruin it. She supposes they’re even now, but that doesn’t help relieve the massive guilt Amory feels at how she treated Blake. She was so wrong.
She knows that now, but doesn’t know what to do about that, how to make it up to Blake. She walks into the cabin to see all the lights off and Blake sitting up in bed in a coughing fit. She looks miserable, her face is red, and Amory is pretty sure that she’s running a fever.
“Okay,” Amory says, “that’s it, you’re going to the clinic.”
“I’m fine,” Blake says.
“You are not fine,” Amory protests, “you’re clearly sick. You need to get treated for whatever’s going on.”
Blake groans and lays back on the bed before she’s immediately sitting up again and coughing. Amory doesn’t get closer to her, doesn’t want to catch whatever Blake has, so she waits for her to finish coughing before she moves forward.
“You can’t live like this,” Amory reasons. “It hasn’t gotten any better, just worse.”
“I’ll be fine,” Blake says.
“You’re a doctor for crying out loud! You know that’s not how it works.”
“It’s just allergies,” Blake protests.
“If it’s just allergies, then you have nothing to worry about,” Amory says. “They’ll just test you for diseases and infection and if it’s nothing, then you can go back to being miserable, but it doesn't look like just allergies.”
Blake doesn’t respond, just groans.
“Come on,” Amory says, “don’t you want to go back to work?”
