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I couldn’t deny, Sophie was one of the reasons I wanted her back. But where Sophie missed her nanny, I missed the woman I loved.
Yes, love.
I hated that it took this happening to see that I really loved her. I hated that I’d been lying to myself.
Releasing a thick breath, I downed the remaining cup of my coffee, staring at the familiar brown house.
I was in Minnesota, right in front of James’ house. But I was hesitating.
Everything I'd felt before leaving New York was slowly dissolving under the weight of fear.
What if Evie didn't want to see me? What if she didn't want me back and the door to her life would be shut forever? Fuck what if James didn’t want me?
My fingers worked their way through my hair.
I hated the uncertainty. I fucking hated it, but I'd gladly go through this if it meant having her back.
I would have her back.
Slowly, I pushed the door open. My steps felt heavy as I tried to gather any sense of hope. Just as I took another step, the door opened, and James appeared.
For the longest time, I froze. He did too.
Many thoughts surged through my head as I wondered what went through his.
I couldn't deny the harsh pacing of my heart when he started to take slow steps towards me.
The early morning sun illuminated his face. He seemed just like always but with an undertone of exhaustion.
I held my breath when he finally reached me.
The anger I expected to see in his eyes was absent, instead, there was something else, something I couldn't quite decipher.
“Coffee?” His voice was arid as he held my gaze.
I didn't want coffee. I didn't want it because it had been my only savior whenever I tried to absolve myself from the taunting dreams of what I’d lost— from the taunting dreams of Evie.
“Yes,” I breathed.
The ride to the coffee place was awkward but we arrived at the small shop and found a somewhat secluded place to settle in.
“I'm sorry, James.”
I broke the silence. “I truly am… for everything. I know what you must think of me. That I'm foolish and despite everything that happened, I still came here. James, I swear I'm truly sorry, but I can't… I just can't stay away from her. I considered it all before coming here but I'll… I'll just… rather go through your fury than live without Evie.”
“I've never known you to be a man of many words.” His stare was blank.
“Wha–what?”
“I've never known you to be one that stutters.”
I furrowed my brows.
“I've never known you to be this irrational, Ethan. So, I need one answer, why are you here?”
His voice was still dry, but his eyes… held something.
I could tell he wanted nothing but the truth. I had no business lying.
