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Maddie pushes me through the doorway while Shawn follows us in his chair. I can hear the murmurs of everyone left in the waiting room before we’re even through the door. Tears fill my eyes as they try to figure out what happened to us. What truly hurts the most is when they think Shawn hurt me and that’s why I’m bruised, with casts on, and in a wheelchair. It’s not enough that he’s also in a wheelchair I guess. People really fucking suck sometimes and there’s nothing I can do to stop them talking about us.
“Don’t listen to them, sweetheart. You and Shawn know what’s going on in your lives and those idiots are just trying to make themselves happy by talking shit about the two of you. There’s physical evidence of the pain and suffering you’ve been going through. Theirs is invisible for the most part and they can’t understand that,” Maddie tells me, her voice warming me from the inside out because I know her words are the truth. Unfortunately, it doesn’t make their words hurt any less.
“Princess, you know I’d never lay a hand on you in anger. Those assholes are ignorant and don’t know how much I truly love you. They don’t know that I’d burn the world down for you or that you mean more to me than anythin’ else. Don’t cry because of them, princess. They’re not worth your tears,” Shawn says, his voice warm and gentle as he looks at me with tender eyes full of love.
We’re wheeled into the room and my vitals are taken. The only thing they really can’t do is weigh me right now. They’re waiting on one of the scales they use in the hospital that can take a wheelchair. Honestly, I can wait for that to happen. I know my weight will be checked at every appointment and I don’t want to see what I weigh. I’ve never had a problem with my weight, I just know once I get the wires removed from my jaw I’m going to go crazy being able to eat solid food. No more smoothies or milkshakes for me. I’m sure I’ll have them once in a while in the future, but it will be a while before I see myself having one.
“We’re not gonna make you wait. The technician and Dr. Tallman are on standby and will be in soon. If you could get her on the table, the technician and Dr. Tallman will take care of the rest,” the nurse says once my vitals are taken and she asks if we have any questions.
While she’s leaving the room, Tank carefully picks me up and sets me on the table where I’ll lay for the ultrasound. This time I'll be able to have a regular one and Shawn made sure of that before we asked Tank and Maddie to be in the room with us. Tank has just gotten me on the table when the door opens and Doc walks in with the technician.
“Are you ready to see your baby?” Doc asks as I want to smile at her in response.
“We’re so ready. Now, are you gonna be checkin’ to see how many are in there? I know you mentioned there’s a possibility of multiples at the last ultrasound. Will that be somethin’ you’re checkin’ for today?” Shawn asks, shocking his parents as they gasp from behind Shawn’s wheelchair.
“That’s the main thing we’re looking for today. We’ll also make sure that nothing is wrong. Based on what we see today, will determine if you remain on bed rest or can get out of bed. To begin with, I’ll probably only allow you to sit in your chair or on the couch somewhere. You really can’t get up and move around with your cast on, so there’s no worry of fallin’ or anythin’ like that,” Doc answers, her voice washing over me and calming my nerves.
I don’t even know why I’m so damn nervous. We’re just getting a look at the babies and making sure everything is okay. I mean it could be because of the fact that I have no clue if the beating I suffered through had any lasting damage to my body. If there’s anything wrong with the babies, I don’t know what I’ll do. Tears fill my eyes as I think of everything that could possibly go wrong with this pregnancy.
“I’m ready when you guys are,” the technician says as Shawn grabs my hand the best he can and we keep our eyes glued to the screen where we’ll see our little ones.
“We’re ready,” Doc says, pulling down the leggings I was put in this morning and pulling up Shawn’s tee-shirt.
With my stomach exposed, the technician squirts some of the gel stuff on my stomach. It’s kind of cold and jolts me. She apologizes and brings the wand thing over to my stomach. The first thing we hear is the heartbeat. Well, if you listen closely, you can hear more than one heartbeat mixing together. They’re just slightly different from one another. Though it’s impossible to determine how many there actually are.
“There is definitely more than one heartbeat in there,” Doc says, giving us a small smile.
After pressing a few buttons on the keyboard, the technician moves the wand again and the screen switches. The sound of our babies’ heartbeats disappear and the screen shows a grainy picture once more. As the wand moves around to show different things, I see what looks like three blank spots in the picture. Again, I still don’t know what I’m looking at or if this is even an indication of the babies.
“You are definitely having multiples,” Doc begins, walking closer to the screen while staying out of our way. “Right here is baby A. Here’s baby B. And over here is baby C. You’re having triplets, Lyric. That’s kind of ironic since Kevlar is a triplet. Congratulations! Now, let’s see how everything looks in there.”
The technician continues to move the wand around and take a look at different things. They talk back and forth as Doc wants things pointed out. I have no clue what they’re talking about and don’t know what questions to ask to make sure everything is okay. Shawn is looking over at me when I turn to face him. I can see he’s just as confused as I am. While I want to be happy as hell that I’m pregnant and we’re having triplets, I can’t because we still don’t know if everything is okay. I won’t know that until Doc tells us one way or the other.
“Lyric and Kevlar, everything looks really good. There isn’t anything that I’m worried about. I’m still going to treat this as a high risk pregnancy just because of the trauma you’ve suffered through. So, while I’m not going to keep you on complete bed rest, please understand it’s important that you don’t overdo things and do something you don’t intend to. So, for now, you can get out of bed for no more than four hours a day. I want you to remain in your wheelchair or on a couch. That’s all the movement I want you to be doing right now. We’ll check you again in a few weeks,” Doc tells us as a huge smile wants to break out on my face. I know I can’t smile in response of the relief flooding me, but it’s there, deep in my heart.
“Thank fuckin’ God!” Shawn says, as I look over at him, his entire body relaxes in the wheelchair and I watch as he smiles. It’s bright and lights up his entire face.
Maddie has tears in her eyes right along with me. I don’t bother stopping them as they roll down my face and slide into my hair.
“We’re not gonna move you, Lyric. I’m gonna do the exam right in here so it’s the easiest. Since I don’t want to perform x-rays unless they’re absolutely needed, we’re going to hold off on that for now. We’ll wait for a few more weeks and then do the x-rays on your leg and wrist. The swelling is going down nicely on your face. It should only be about three more weeks before we can remove the wires from your jaw. Then, you’ll be on a diet of soft food and can slowly add more to your diet as it continues to heal,” Doc says as she waits for Tank, Maddie, and the technician to leave the room.
Doc performs the exam as Shawn remains at my side. She tells me everything is okay and that I’ll see her again in a few weeks. Maddie helps me get my clothes back on before letting Tank know he can come in the room. He gets me in my wheelchair before Maddie takes over pushing me from the room. This time Shawn and Tank are in front of us.
“I got pictures from the ultrasound. The technician forgot to hand them over before she left the room. There’s some of each baby and then some of all three together. It’s so exciting that you’re having triplets. I’ll help you any way I can since I’ve been there. Skylar can also help. She might not have had triplets before, but she’s had twins three different times. The woman is a fucking champion if you ask me,” Maddie says, pushing me from the hallway and into the waiting room where Tank sets up my next appointment since it’s so hard to get close to the counter in this wheelchair.
As soon as the appointment is made, we head out and Tank gets us both back in the truck before we head back to the clubhouse. Shawn lets his dad know we’re going to the clubhouse for a little while. He’s not gonna let me stay out of bed for too long today because I’ve already been to the doctor’s office and been up for a while now. Still, it’s better than going right back to bed.
Tank pulls in and parks as close to the door as he can. After getting us out of the truck, I point for the notebook that’s on the seat between where Maddie and I were sitting. Tank hands it to me with the pen and I put it in my lap before we make our way inside the clubhouse. Everyone is sitting around the numerous tables as we get wheeled in. They all look up at us and wait to hear what Doc said.
“Everythin’ looks great!” Shawn announces, keeping his voice low since Doc wants to insure he doesn’t yell or anything else and do any further damage to his throat with it healing as good as it is. “Now, for the great news. We’re havin’ triplets!”
There’s a moment of silence before everyone erupts into cheers, whistling, and clapping in response to Shawn’s announcement. My eyes look around the room to find my sister. She’s standing in the doorway of the kitchen. In a second she moves from the doorway and back in there so none of us in the common room can see her. This needs to end right fucking now. I’m not gonna let her continue to push me away and fall into further despair because of everything going on with me. Yes, I’m pregnant. I didn’t do it to hurt her or anything else. Shawn and I have the right to be happy that we’re creating a family of our own. I shouldn’t have to tamp down my feelings because my sister is upset about this.
Opening the notebook I begin to write something for my sister. She’s gonna read what I have to say and I’ll do whatever is necessary to make sure she does this time. Paige is done fucking running from me right now.
Paige, you know I love you. I owe you so much after everything you’ve done for me over the years. You stayed in Cedar Bay, a place we both hate, just so I didn’t end up in foster care. You’ve given up so damn much and there’s nothing I can do to repay you for everything. I will spend the rest of my days knowing exactly what you’ve given up for me and how much you hate being here still. I love our relationship and the fact that you’re more than just my sister. You’re my best friend and the one I want to turn to when I have problems or questions. However, I’m not going to do everything in my life for you. Yes, I’m pregnant and I’m having triplets. I didn’t even know I was pregnant before waking up and being told in the hospital. Do you even know or care that I could lose my babies?
Anyway, I’m with Shawn and I love him. We’ve talked about having kids because we both want them. We want a family of our own and that’s okay. We can want that and make it happen. I’d love for you to be there and be happy for me. However, you can’t even stand to be in the same room as me for more than a minute or two. Paige, you haven’t dealt with your loss since the accident. The way you’re treating me isn’t fair or right. I hate that you can’t be a mom in the traditional manner. However, it doesn’t mean that you can never be a mom. Get the fuck over this and realize that you can still have what you want. There are more ways to have children than carrying them in your body. You have a decision to make because I’m not going to continue being upset and worried about how you feel. I will always love you and want to be at your side, but you have to give me something in return.
