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“Yes it is. The ones making it more complicated are you and him. Get out of your own way and it’ll happen.”

As I lay in bed later that night, my mind won’t let me sleep.

Is Len right? Should I admit to myself what I’ve been denying?

I’m in love with Landon.

Wait, did I actually just say that?

I’m in love with Landon.

I’m in love with Landon.

I can’t wait any longer to tell him.

I throw my comforter to the side, slide on my slippers, and run out of my apartment and up to Landon’s in only my pjs. I don’t care. I want to shout it from the rooftops.

I’M IN LOVE WITH LANDON!

I knock on his door and wait. Holden opens the door, surprised to see me. “Hey, Ev.”

“Is Landon here?”

“No, sorry. He went out earlier. I can tell him you swung by.”

“No, that’s okay. Thanks anyways. Sorry to bug you.”

“It’s all good.”

I turn to go.

“Ev.” Holden says and I stop.

“He’s on the same page as you. Just give him time. He’s a little freaked out. But he’ll come around.”

I smile at him from over my shoulder. “Thanks Holden. Goodnight.”

“Night.”

I shuffle back downstairs. Holden’s words were comforting but I can’t help but feel disappointed he wasn’t home. Is he out hooking up with some girl because we aren’t anymore?

The thought makes me sick. He wouldn’t would he?

As I round the corner to my apartment, I look up and see Landon.

He’s standing in front of my door, a bag in one hand.

“Landon?” I ask and his head snaps my way.

“Ev, there you are. You weren’t answering my texts, I thought you might’ve gone to bed but I decided to check. I tried knocking but no one answered but now here you are and—” He rambles on and I place a finger on his lips.

“Shh. Just kiss me you idiot.”

Landon doesn’t hesitate. He kisses me with so much intensity, my knees go weak.

“I love you, Everleigh. I don’t care about the virgin bullshit, I deserved it. I haven’t slept with anyone since we hooked up at your cousin’s wedding. Only you, Pookie. The last time I tried I couldn’t even get my dick up.”

I laugh. “Good. Serves you right. I love you too, Landon. I’ve loved you for months now. I didn’t want to admit it.”