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My heart raced in my chest. “I’ll figure it out. I promise.”
Hanna nodded, then walked over to Marley, Ireland, and my mom. Heath and Emmett were on the ice, engaging with Addy and Ember. They were joking around, pretending to fall, and asking one of the girls to pull them up. It was comical and sweet, but I couldn’t think past the roaring in my ears.
You had to date for a while and see if it was a good fit. That didn’t happen overnight, did it? Last night, being with Hanna felt natural. How could something that felt so right be wrong?
I rubbed at the renewed pain in my chest. What if I was making a mistake?
I could show Hanna how I really felt. When we were alone, it felt natural and right. It was when I factored in the rest of my life that I faltered.
I just needed to spend some time with her, and then everything else would fall into place.
CHAPTER 16
HANNA
It was a beautiful day spent with this family. When Talon appeared with Holly it raised everyone’s brows. I think everyone was so relieved that they’d gone on a date last night and were hanging out today, that no one wanted to ask him or her what was going on.
When Ember got tired, we went home. Sebastian insisted she take an early bath before we ate dinner and then settled in front of the TV to watch a movie.
Within minutes, Ember was asleep. I waited while Sebastian took her upstairs, got her dressed, and tucked her into bed.
My heart rate picked up slightly. I wasn’t sure what to expect after the conversation with Knox earlier. Had Sebastian decided that pursuing something with me was a mistake?
When he returned to the living room, his eyes were intense. He stalked across the room, braced his hands on either side of me on the couch, and kissed me thoroughly. He gently maneuvered me until I was resting on my back, and he was on top.
I wanted to ask if he was sure if this was a good idea, but his hands were everywhere at once, pushing my shirt up and palming my breast, his mouth warm and insistent on mine. I couldn’t stop the onslaught if I wanted to, and I didn’t.
I wanted to experience Sebastian like this. I want to get lost in his desire for me. He unbuckled my jeans and slid his fingers inside me, alternating between thrusting and curling them against that bundle of nerves that sent the orgasm crashing through me faster than I wanted.
“Upstairs,” was all Sebastian said as he scooped me up and carried me up the stairs, past Ember’s closed door and into his room. He set me down, pausing only to lock the door, and then he was on me again, kissing me and pulling my clothes off.
My hands tugged at his jeans, and he moved to help me. Soon enough, my breasts were pressed against his chest, his hands on my ass pulling me tighter to him. Everything in me was liquid hot.
I wanted this. I wanted him. I wanted to feel him wild with desire for me. When we were alone in the dark, everything else fell away, his worries and my insecurities.
This was right. He couldn’t argue that we weren’t meant to be. That we didn’t have chemistry.
He lifted me until my legs wound around his waist, and then we were falling to the soft bed, his cock nestled at my entrance. I was already wet, and the tip easily slipped inside.
Sebastian groaned before he took a nipple into his mouth and rocked inside me. It was so good with him. I didn’t have to worry about anything because the movements and steps felt natural.
He rolled us so that I was on top, his hands palming my breasts as I rose over him.
I bit my lip, the sensation of his cock filling me at this angle almost too much. His hands moved to my hips as he helped me. “You’re so beautiful.”
I let his words and the love I saw for me in his eyes send me over the edge. I was lost in him, in us, and in the promise of what we could be. If only Sebastian would let go and allow himself to feel this. I grabbed a hold of his wrist and held on as he pressed into me from the bottom and let go.
I lifted off him, moving to the bathroom to clean up. But Sebastian caught my wrist. “You’re coming back?”
His voice was low and vulnerable.
“I just need to clean up.” It was messier without a condom, and I’d never experienced that with anyone else. I trusted Sebastian sexually; I just wished I could fully trust him with my heart. A part of me worried that his tendency to overanalyze every situation would be our downfall.
I’d made a vow that I wouldn’t let Sebastian pull away. He was either all in or he couldn’t have me. I was done being someone he kept close but didn’t make his.
I deserved so much more. I wanted to be the woman in his life. The one he could count on and come home to at the end of the day. But I couldn’t be that if he didn’t let me in.
Sebastian nodded, his gaze scanning over my naked body appreciatively.
