Room Eighteen: My Pain, Their Pleasure

JESSA
I was able to resist the desire for months, but I’m an addict and pain is my drug. I’ve found ways to get a fix while staying safe which is why I have so many tattoos. I was able to ignore the pull, the need, that spike of fear the pain brings. Until I wasn’t.

Now they know my secret. Now they know what swirls inside of me. And they crave more. I wonder if they’ll stick around because a lifetime of my pain as their pleasure sounds perfect to me.

AIDEN
I hide who and what I am behind a façade, one carefully crafted and hard to break through because of the smile on my face and the armor around my soul. With Jessa and the guys, I can admit who I am and let my darkness out to play. I can see the doubt in her eyes, the fear this will all disappear and become nothing but a dream. She doesn’t realize that I can never go back now. None of us can.

BROOKS
Oh, the things I want to do to Jessa. I knew there was darkness lurking beneath the ink and now that it’s peeked back at me, I can’t let it go. Just like I can’t let her go. She wants to hide this part of herself, but I’m going to show her that the only thing to do is embrace it.

CAMERON
I forgot how to live a long time ago, content with going through the motions and doing the things expected of me to live from one day to the next. Until Jessa let herself be free. Now I can soar on the wings of her pain and pleasure because they are my own. She owns me, all of me, and now I live to bring her to her knees knowing she’s the one who has the power to slay me.