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Despite only being a kid, I knew she was the one.

I claimed her instantly before anyone could,

And despite everyone telling me I needed to live a little,

That we were too young, that I wasn’t ready,

I made her mine in the eyes of the law and the club.

I couldn’t chance anyone else having her,

I couldn’t chance losing her,

Until I did anyway because I messed up.

She pulled back from me, and instead of communicating,

I sought affection elsewhere, and I liked the attention I finally got.

I moved my mistress into the club,

I chose her over my own family for a year,

Thinking I could have the best of both worlds.

But I was wrong,

My love found out and instead of confronting me,

Instead of admitting to her own fault in the demise of our marriage,

She left me only heightening my suspicions,

Ensuring I believed I wasn’t the only one having an affair.

I try to fight for her, to show her that I do still love her,

But she’s not having any of it, refusing to see things from my point of view,

But she forgets, when I want something, I go for it,

And I want her back where she belongs,

In my arms.

It’s just a shame I didn’t know how badly I had messed up….

Ashley

Falling in love as a child, my parents thought it would disappear,

Allowing a brother to claim me, to marry me,

They disowned me.

I didn’t care though, because I had him and he was all I needed.

Even if his family didn’t agree.

I put my whole life on hold for him,

Allowed him to succeed within the club,

Only to find out it was all a lie,

His feelings for me, his love….

Something happened, something I couldn’t speak about,

Something I struggled to cope with,

And I pulled back from him, believing he would never seek out another,

But I was wrong.

He found a mistress, moved her in right underneath my nose,

Tearing us apart.

He chose her over me, over our family, for months,

While I stayed blissfully unaware,

Until I didn’t.

I left, deciding to never look back,

Deciding maybe it was time for me to move on, even if I didn’t have any family.

But unfortunately for me, when a brother claims you,

You are theirs for life.

He tries to chase me, to win me back,

But once you break that trust,

Once you break my heart,

There is no coming back.

This can be read as a standalone. It is book 3 of 7 of The Rebels MC series, with a HEA. Due to mature content and themes, this book is recommended for readers aged 18+; this novel may contain triggers.