Until We Kiss

Six months ago, everything changed.

I was quarterback for IFU and heading to the NFL draft when a lineman slammed into me.
Before that last moment on the field, I knew who I was. I knew where I was heading. I had confidence, certainty, maybe some cockiness.
Now, I know nothing.
Only that I’m heading on a last spring Break with the guys—five days of sun and sand with my three best friends—and I’m determined to get back to myself.
And the way to do that? It might be unconventional, but there’s one thing I’ve wanted to try, one thing I’ve never done.
Being with another guy wasn’t on the forefront of my thoughts before, but now I just need anything to stop me from thinking about the remnants of my life.
The only other thing that helps? My best friend Carter. Big, excitable and always laughing, with his warm hazel eyes and dimpled grin. He takes me out of the dark holes my mind keeps pushing me into.
Hooking up with him never crossed my mind… not really…
But when I step into the shower with him, both of us shivering from a midnight dip in the ocean, my heart starts pummeling, and every part of me responds.
The steam is thick, the water glistening along his skin.
But we’re friends. Bros. I can’t—won’t—risk that.
Except now that I’m looking at him, I can’t stop.