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Me
Yeah, sure, where?
SK
I’ll come to you, where you at?
My heart stops thudding and drops, he doesn’t care if people see which means it’s business, not personal. I remind myself I did this to us and I did it for him. He’s just acting accordingly. I wanted this.
Me
Sure, I’m just in front of the girls house by the pool. Rae has a date with Beth at home, all relaxation and a giant outdoor screen for movie night.
SK
She’ll love that.
I’m immediately jealous of a girl I should be happy for and feel sorry for. I feel like a horrible person and properly convince myself I am one. Thankfully I only have to wait five minutes for Sookie to show up. He’s wearing loose jeans, Jordans, and a loose fitting black Supreme white T-shirt. Has he been working out? Why are his biceps bulging and why does his hair look longer right now?
God. I just want to stare at his mouth. And those hands. Those hands he had on my body just yesterday.
Mouth dry I put on the best professional face I can and smile at him. “What’s up?”
His eyebrows shoot up, his smile is bitter. “I promised Rae I’d check on you because according to him you’re acting weird and since I know nothing and mean nothing, I need to report back to him something that sounds like a believable lie.” He takes a step forward. “Should I just say it’s that time of the month or should I say you’re dating the producer and don’t want him to find out? Both are believable.”
I feel my entire body go cold. “You turned mean.”
“And you turned heartless.” He snaps back. “So I guess we’re even. Unless you have a better story to tell him?”
“Fine.” I snap. “Sure, then tell him I’ve been asked to go out with Producer Sung-Bin, it’s not like it’s a lie, I’ve just turned him down every time, but maybe I should change and go with my heartless ways.”
Sookie leans in, his smile cruel. “Good job, research how big his dick is before you decide to stay with him and if it checks out you won’t break him, I mean he pretty much checks every other box you have for your life.”
“You don’t even know.” I snap under my breath. “What I want.”
“And neither do you.” He says softly. “All right, I’ll let him know you have a secret boyfriend you’re not ready to reveal but that he’s very high up in the industry so you’re feeling nervous.” He turns around. “See you on the date.”
I want to yell at him it should be our date. That this shouldn’t be the sort of fate we get instead I watch him walk confidently back to the house and I can’t wonder where it all went wrong.
It started with a forbidden kiss.
And ended in a love sick nightmare.
Producer Sung-Bin chooses that moment to walk up next to me, watching Sookie walk away. “Poor kid may have thrown away his career.”
Kid. Not a kid. “Yeah, well, he understands his own mind, all we can do is guide him, by the way, I’ll take you up on that dinner date sometime.”
His shocked expression makes me feel sick to my stomach, but I have no choice. We both move on, or Sookie’s the one that truly loses. I just wish he saw it that way, I wish he understood that I’m not just breaking his heart, I’m breaking mine too.
“Great!” Producer Sung-Bin pulls out his phone. “Looks like we wrap early Friday night, let’s go out then.”
“It’s a date.” I sound excited but the words are bitter, and when I swallow even my mouth feels the sadness of them, the deepness of that sadness goes into my very soul. He walks away from me and I stare at the grass. One journey leads to destruction but happiness, the other leads to freedom and fame for Sookie but devastation and heart ache for me… and maybe for him too. What a fate we have.
Lucky us.
Hours later I’m on set again, and being forced to watch the final date while the other crew is with the other couples, I get the joy of watching Sookie with his ex. These days have not been great.
He’s also touching Iseul again, he’s almost gentle with her, and when he looks over at me, his eyes don’t lie. Innocent Sookie isn’t looking at me, no he’s proving something to me as if to say, you told me to do this. Enjoy.
